How am I going to do This?!!! part 2

　

How am I going to do this?!!! (part 2)

And there was the answer right in front of me.  What if I attacked these challenges  the same way I approached Fashion Show and TV Production? Yes! Pretend that I’m producing two shows in two cities simultaneously. Albeit two of the most important shows of my life. The casts would consist of my mother in New York and my husband in Virginia. The crew would be the lawyers, doctors, nurses, caregivers, hospice, etc. The scripts would include each of their cancers, including hospital addresses, meetings with doctors, wills, pre and post care treatments.  The props would include prescription drugs, syringes, adult diapers, bed pans, and wheelchairs. There would be letters and updates to my sisters: one a single mom on the west coast with two kids and one who lived in New York but managed to be too busy with one thing or the other, whenever I asked for help. Yes, I was on my own, but producing, coordinating, planning was so comfortable to me. It was like breathing.

Plus, I'd graduated from The Dalton School, and won a scholarship to Sarah Lawrence College.

Those schools taught me independent thinking, creativity, and leadership. These all women schools, at the time, meant that we girls were in charge of everything: the school newspaper, the athletic club, the math group. I was accustomed to being a leader.

I could feel the control coming back.  So I bought a leather bound journal (production book), divided it into two parts and starting producing my shows.

I fleshed out the characters: their illnesses, diagnosis, needs. I wrote pre production treatments: what services did I need in each of the cities with telephone numbers, fax numbers and addresses of every doctor, hospital, car service, food service, and treatment center. I wrote out my crew list: caregivers, house keepers,  and helpful friends.

I added a month at a glance calendar to the front of the journal and kept all appointments in red for my husband and green for mom so I could easily see which city I had to be in and when. No fear of double booking myself for two appointments in two different cities. Just the way I’d organized my calendar when I was modeling in Europe, and was often in several cities in the same week. Yes, this was much better. I even inserted notes to meditate, breathe, or sleep while I was flying between cities, waiting in emergency rooms, or standing in hallways.

Now, what am I going to wear?